I know it has been a week since I posted. The problem isn't that I'm too busy. I am admitting I'm struggling. I just don't seem to have a desire to read my bible or study books right now. I do read my little devotional each morning but that isn't speaking to me either. I'm seeking God, begging God to give me the desire again. I open my bible and just don't know how to really dig deep and gleam from it.
Today is Good Friday and has deep meaning but my thoughts don't seem to travel there. You see 22 years ago my brother killed himself this holiday. I wish I could say we had a good relationship but we didn't. Now I miss him. Now I want that relationship.
Today our daughter got a call from a friend. Her best friend's father died today. Hubby and I often sat with her parents at band competitions when the girls were in high school. I feel so sad for Molly. I know how much she will miss her father.
Maybe I'm just feeling a little depressed. I want spring to come and stay and be able to enjoy the outside and the fresh air.
So there you have it. I am struggling and that is why I haven't posted lately.