Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Brokenness

For over a week now it seems when I sit before the Lord the word "Brokenness" is laid on my heart. This has been going on for a week now. So I thought let's blog the word and see what comes to mind as I type.

I took a moment to look it up in a dictionary. I like these means of the word: made weak, not complete or full.

This made my mind wonder to a song and the words in the song say something like this: Brokenness is what He wants from me.

I think God wants me to remember I am week, He is the strong one in this relationship. It is only God who can complete me and fulfill me. This reminds me God Is Enough.

I understand I need to lay it all before the love. Not just the things. I need to lay my emotions and thoughts. So often when I think of God as Enough. I think I don't need the stuff. I don't stop to think of the emotions. That is one area like to avoid. But if I make myself weak He will make me strong.

There are things going on here that I do feel difficult times will be upon me soon. I may feel like things are falling apart. God is calling me to fill up now so I don't shatter.

I'm sure over the next week I learn more as I wait upon the Lord.

3 comments:

Talk..to..Grams said...

Sandi, I just read your comment on my blog and Bless Your Heart!!! What is it that you have that makes it so you can't have chocolate. This will be a tough one to get used too!
I like sugar and I like salt!! Some days I really want something salty!! But if I do eat anything salty, my feet look like balloons! So I have been very careful!!!
Love and hugs Grams

Denise said...

Saying a prayer for you my friend.

Sharon Brumfield said...

You are in such a good spot!
Stay with Him girl...He is going to teach you some marvelous things.
I know you know this...but the things you think are coming...He knows them. He is already there.
And when you finally get there..if it happens...He is going to teach you some incredible things about His love.
So many of the things that I have been concerned about have happened. And in the middle of the things I remember thinking...this is something I used to fear...and I have survived it. Not only survived it...but walked out of it with a greater awareness of the power and love of my God.
And just a thought...a vessel broken allows what is in it to pour out(fear, anxiety, stress)and once emptied...He is able to refill it with the full sweetness of Himself.
I no longer fear being homeless. ;)