Yesterday really tested me. First I went shopping for the new grandson. Ryan is sure a cutie. I didn't want to spend over a certain amount so I took my "cards" out of my wallet and only brought with me the cash I could spend. I was so surprised on how I felt removing the "cards". I had such an emptiness about me. I learned something about myself I didn't like after talking with a friend at choir practice. God wanted me to go though this so I understood how deep the roots of my spending went. I was thinking I have moved past my need for financial security or good feeling that comes with shopping. I now know God and I have more work to do. I will have to remove the "cards" more often. I must depend totally on God for the good feeling and security.
The next part of the day seemed worst but may not be. My dad had his second heart attack in 4 days. He is in the hospital now. They are taking him off all his medicine and introducing all new medicine. Dad is not a believer. My pastor offered to visit Dad. I will be asking Dad today if that would be OK. Hubby thinks if Dad meets Pastor Tim he will really like him.
When I talked to Dad yesterday he was worried about Mom and wants me to check on her several times a day. I promised him I would. So this morning it is off to mom's till she goes to the hospital.